hi,assalamualaikum...
i've been wondering,why is that we tend to be super mean when trying to defencing our self? okay i'm not pointing this to certain people,i'm pointing this to myself also because i,too do that even i'm not defencing myself. Yes,we point out other people weakness,because you know that they are not gonna fight back.i know that kind of act is very hurtful to the other person.i know,because i've into that kind of situation.haha and it's not a good one. i try,every single day, i try to be a better person,but yeah,i let my heart win,some told me that i should not put things inside my heart put it in your mind because heart doesn't control things,mind does.just like the malay idioms 'ikut rasa,badan binasa. ikut hati membawa mati' same as my point here. i am so mad at myself for letting my heart wins.and i let myself do something that i can avoid.i call people names,and all..i feel bad..but at that time,it feels sooooo damn funny.haihh.i'm nineteen this year.i should've know better.whenever i'm alone,i think about this:
Because i know i'd go beserk and cry my eyes out if my children being bullied like that. i,myself know that i'm far from perfect,but when i make other people hurt,i feel that i'm the superior one,in fact i just made my self 10 times worst than the people that i hurt,haihhh.ya allah,i feel like giving myself a big,hard slap on my face.dah la,i'll try to change.bit by bit. alhamdulillah,this year punya azam,i manage to complete.:)"what will their parents feel if i say something bad or hurtful to their child? will they be mad? sad? or both?"
